An internal dialogue:
Topdog: People are not generally aware
Underdog (the asker within): Why?
Topdog: Why do you need the justification?
Underdog: OK [but you may be wrong]
Topdog: [sigh] OK… [but I also feel the self-doubt]
(topdog/underdog cycle breaks with that feeling ack)
B: Deep awareness leads to compassion [just constructed this argument, but I already had certainty about it]
B: They mostly understand it conceptually, not experientally, for if it was experiental, they’d be grounded and not stuck in superiority complex or other loops
M: OK, that checks
…
M: Doesn’t this help you with your superiority complex, too though?
B: No, compassion first. But it does help my need to understand. Still need that… And it also helps against introjecting wrong stuff
M: Becoming rigid?
B: Selective
M: Objective
B: Subjective
M: *random arg*
B: The beauty of arguments, endless loops and cycles. But it still somehow provided clarity. I feel integrated.
M: Some tension, but this was constructive
B: Handshake. From self-doubt to bigger certainty through real contact
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