life, mathematics, programming
In the past few months, I’ve been attending a Coaching Workshop at Automattic, organized by our great Learn team.
We used CfT as a learning resource, but in my experience, the best learning came during the sessions, gently guided by the facilitator.
As time went on, I came up with a grounding ritual that I kept telling myself before the sessions. I found it useful to myself, so I will share it here.
Continue reading “Coaching grounding ritual”An internal dialogue:
Topdog: People are not generally aware
Underdog (the asker within): Why?
Topdog: Why do you need the justification?
Underdog: OK [but you may be wrong]
Topdog: [sigh] OK… [but I also feel the self-doubt]
(topdog/underdog cycle breaks with that feeling ack)
B: Deep awareness leads to compassion [just constructed this argument, but I already had certainty about it]
B: They mostly understand it conceptually, not experientally, for if it was experiental, they’d be grounded and not stuck in superiority complex or other loops
M: OK, that checks
…
M: Doesn’t this help you with your superiority complex, too though?
B: No, compassion first. But it does help my need to understand. Still need that… And it also helps against introjecting wrong stuff
M: Becoming rigid?
B: Selective
M: Objective
B: Subjective
M: *random arg*
B: The beauty of arguments, endless loops and cycles. But it still somehow provided clarity. I feel integrated.
M: Some tension, but this was constructive
B: Handshake. From self-doubt to bigger certainty through real contact
If you’ve been following my blog, you’ve probably noticed my shift towards psychology in the past period. And before that, I spent a lot of time tackling mathematics and proofs, especially set theory.
Gestalt therapy focuses on how awareness organizes figure and ground in contact with the world. Set theory, with its emphasis on partitions and transitions, gives us a playful but precise language to represent these processes.
This blog post will be a conjuction of both ideas.
Continue reading “Gestalt Therapy Meets Set Theory”In the hotel,
a temporary stay
for the self
while it journeys,
are users
and servers.
The users
often change hotels
gain new experiences
taste different foods
directionless
like tumbleweeds
Enjoying life
The servers
stay in the same hotel
get paid
taste the same foods
directionful
like servants
Enjoying productivity
The self
analyzing this
gets conflicted
but notices
it can be both
a server,
a user
The self
enduring this
with prayer
integrates
choosing when to be
a server,
or a user
Choose not
just what feels right
but also what is right
Let your experiences, your spirit and God guide you
I once had
an imaginary dialogue
with my 17-year-old self,
using techniques I had learned
to unstuck him.
The techniques
certainly helped
but he had already
unstuck himself
back then.
I realized then:
techniques are tools.
Dialogues, imaginations,
mere abstractions.
The important thing is love.
The important thing is endurance.
The important thing is hope
and awareness, and faith, and trust.
Not avoidance,
but true experience of the void
when it surfaces.
For the universe works
in mysterious ways,
beyond our comprehension,
making voids fertile
after we have endured them.
Chase not understanding,
but experiencing,
experimenting,
and loving life.
When this poem makes sense,
you have found calm.
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